Chapter 181 Are You Torturing Me Or Torturing Yourself?
She suddenly let go of her hand, lowered her head, and tears fell down. After a while, the ground in front of her was already wet.
Lu Yanheng was also in pain.
He witnessed Chen Yu and her deep feelings with his own eyes, and then broke up her and Chen Yu in this way. He wanted to say much, Lin Ruoruo, let go of his love for Chen Yu, I am here.
"Look at what you are now, Lin Ruoruo, look at yourself!" He looked at her condescendingly, "If you can't bear to leave him so much, then go out now and run to him to comfort him!"
But she said, "You know I can't and can't go to him."
"You still remember the agreement between us. I thought you forgot. Go out, even if you haven't divorced me, you can be with him without a name. Didn't you say you thought so too? Since you are so painful, you can choose to end all this and I'll give you this opportunity."
She didn't look at him, and continued to lower her head, her voice was also low, and she cried: "What am I for! You don't understand me! I didn't divorce you, how can I have the good reputation to go to the United States, how can I have the good attitude to meet his parents, how can I enjoy his love like this? If others know, what will they look at me and how will they look at him? Lu Yanheng, you are so calculating, you are too right! You are very happy to see me and him in such pain, you are very happy, right?"
Comfortable? Happy?
Lu Yanheng sneered: "In your heart, I am already such a person. What else can I say?"
"If you torture each other like this, everything is in your control. You feel very fulfilled. Lu Yanheng, right? Whatever you say love me is lying to me. You have never thought about it for yourself, and never before. Now the relationship between me and him will gradually become alienated from such suspicion and questioning, you will get what you want, and you will win, right?"
"Yes! Lin Ruoruo, this is what I want!"
I don't know if this sentence from Lu Yanheng aroused Lin Ruoruo's fighting spirit. She wiped her tears and stood up from the ground, covering her eyes with one hand, but she still didn't want him to see her embarrassed look: "Before it started, how did you know you would win and I would lose? Yes, Chen Yu disliked me the most with you, and he couldn't tolerate you, which means he cared about me. But I believe in him, when I left you the lowest point and lay in the hospital, it was him by my side, not you, Lu Yanheng. I have been in love with you for five years, although you hurt you so hard
I live with me, but I still love you. I love you while letting go. Just when I thought I was going to live my life so hard and helplessly, Chen Yu pulled me out of your quagmire and gave me a new world and a new life. He told me with his actions that he was there. He often hugged me and told me that he was there. Yes, he was there, and he was there, what else can I be afraid of? Love is not humble. When he was by the beach in La City, Lijiang City, I knew that he had entered my life."
"Enough!" He shouted in silence, "What's this!"
"I haven't finished speaking yet!" Lin Ruoruo raised his chin stubbornly and looked at him through his fingers, "That's just the beginning, can't you stand it anymore, Lu Yanheng? Chen Yu entered my life from my life, and started by accepting his proposal. When his ring was put on my ring finger, I picked you out of my heart. He made me understand that I didn't have to do it. He also made me understand that I can still love him. So, Lu Yanheng, this is the beginning! The ten-day appointment is just a beginning!"
Lu Yanheng didn't say anything, took a step forward and pulled her hand down, looked at her swollen eyes, raised her eyebrows and sneered: "Ruoru, then we'll wait and see. Don't worry, I'll keep my word. As long as you win, I'll divorce and give you freedom."
Her hands were full of wetness, but her eyes were full of stubbornness, and she just looked at him.
He felt ache and softened: "Don't cry anymore, go in."
He heard her words and was full of anger, but after seeing her eyes, he inexplicably lost his temper. He sighed slightly, for the first time he had such patience with someone, but he seemed not to get her response.
Ruoru, you don’t know, I am tired too. This ten-day appointment is our final entanglement. Just like what I said before, my original intention is only hope that you can understand later on. For you, for me, and for Chen Yu. If he loves you more than I imagined, I will give you to him. My Ruoru has suffered too much grievances with me. Since she doesn’t think I can compensate, then let her second half of her life be guaranteed, and there is a man who loves her more than I do to protect her.
Lin Ruoruo did not move, and raised another hand that was not held by Lu Yanheng and wiped his tears hard.
"Then we're just consuming it, Ruruo." He didn't move, just looked at him.
The night is so good, the darkness is so good. Without the brightness of the day and nowhere to hide, it is impossible to see clearly even if you are close to it.
Lin Ruoru turned his head and looked outside the villa from afar, and naturally he couldn't see anything. But she still looked like this, trying to see something from the vast night.
She looked outside, and Lu Yanheng looked at her.
No one can see the situation outside.
Lu Yanheng finally couldn't stand it anymore: "You are planning to stand here all night? Watching like this?"
"No," Lin Ruoruo turned around, with a little glow in her eyes. Just now, she figured it out, "I have to save my energy and accumulate my energy so that I can not fall down and not be defeated."
After she finished speaking, she smiled softly, as if she was cheering herself up.
Lu Yanheng was slightly stunned, and then a smile flashed in his eyes: "Are you hungry or not? Do you want to have a midnight snack?"
"If you don't eat enough, how can I have the strength to fight this emotional battle?"
She said what she said without any concealment, her eyes curled up, and took the lead in walking into the villa.
Mrs. Zhang heard the sound and thought that Mr. Lu was back. She hurried to the hall to take care of her: "Mr. Lu, you..." Before she finished speaking, she shouted in disbelief, "Madam? You... Madam, are you back?"
Lin Ruoru reluctantly put a smile on his face, making him look not so discouraged: "Well, Mrs. Zhang, it's me. But I'm not Mrs. Lu, just call me Ruoru."
"But Mr. Lu said that you are Mrs. Lu..."
Lin Ruoru was stunned and quickly emphasized again: "Call me Ruoru. Mrs. Zhang, if you are not used to it, you can also call me Miss Lin. I have no objection."
"This..." Mrs. Zhang hesitated and hurried to see Lu Yanheng's face, but found that he said nothing, just stood behind Lin Ruoruo two steps away, looking faintly.
Lin Ruoruo said again: "Sister Zhang, if you are troublesome, make me some food, I'm hungry."
"Okay, okay," Mrs. Zhang responded quickly, "Miss Lin, what do you want to eat?"
"Whatever you want, do whatever you want."
Mrs. Zhang responded to go to the kitchen to cook.
In the restaurant, no one continued to speak. The voice that had just been chatting with Mrs. Zhang as if chatting about family matters came to an abrupt end, and there was no echo left.
But Lu Yanheng felt warm in his heart.
This is, what home feels like?
In fact, he has always had it, but he doesn't know how to cherish it. Now he regrets it, and greedily robs the only remaining warmth he has snatched.
Well, she is still here, and he is here too.
Mrs. Zhang brought a bowl of steaming Yangchun noodles with neat hands and feet, her face full of surprise. Unexpectedly, Mr. Lu came back and Mr. Lu was also with her. Is this empty villa finally going to have the warmth of home?
The wife is very hard. Mrs. Zhang has been a servant in the Lu family for so long, and she can see it clearly better than anyone else. Since Mrs. Lu entered this house, she has been alone most of the time, and it is common for Mr. Lu to not go home. But during this period, many things have become different. Looking at Mr. Lu’s eyes at Mrs. Lu, it is meaningful to put her in her heart.
OK, as long as you can be together and come back, it is better than anything else.
Lin Ruoru looked at the noodles at hand and picked up the chopsticks, but found that she had no strength to pick up the noodles, and her hands were weak and weak. Seeing the noodles that made people feel hungry, she felt nauseous.
Can't eat it at all.
But she didn't have any strength in her hands, and tears also squeezed out the remaining energy. She didn't eat, so how could she spend ten days here and appear in front of him again and said: Look, I took good care of myself.
So, eat it.
Lin Ruoru slowly picked up a few noodles and put them in his mouth. He put them in his mouth and chewed them for a few times, but he couldn't swallow them. While she was looking for water on the table in a hurry, she handed them over with one hand and held a mug.
She glanced at Lu Yanheng and took the water. She swallowed the noodles with the water.
She didn't say "thank you", and ignored Lu Yanheng's existence, and continued to face a large bowl of Yangchun noodles. She felt nauseous and she wanted to vomit when she smelled the smell. She couldn't eat it, but she didn't have the strength. Lin Ruoru continued to pick up the chopsticks and put noodles into her mouth one by one.
A glass of water was quickly finished by her.
When she finished drinking water and was about to eat noodles again, Lu Yanheng suddenly took a step forward, waved his hand and swept the bowl of noodles out of him, and fell to the ground with a "splash", which was terrible.
Lin Ruoruo trembled for a moment, then looked up at him: "What do you want to do?"
"What do I want to do?" Lu Yanheng was not angry at all, even calmer than her. "I'm afraid that if you eat it, you will even spit out bile. Are you torturing me or torture you now?"
"I'm hungry."
"Don't eat it."
Chapter completed!